Teens - Confessions - Every Man's Battle

Temptations Taunt

Dominic — Tue, 07 Sep 2010 10:39:54 -0400

As of right now, I am extremely tempted... I am not going to give in, but why I am I so tempted!!! i know Gods plan for my life, I am greatly look toward being married, and have a wonderful family!!! I know satan is strong but... grrhhh please pray that my mind would be renewed in God so my heart will not find pleasure in this sick sin!

Cracking at the Seams

Ryan — Tue, 07 Sep 2010 10:37:17 -0400

Lately I've fallen into porn again, I stopped watching it for about 3 years and I want to be a pastor. It seems as if my flesh is attacking me with every weapon available to bring me down and keep from the life GOd has called me. I needed to get this off my chest and I'd like and take help and advice anyone has to offer.

feeling filthy and weird

michael — Tue, 07 Sep 2010 10:36:43 -0400

i am whatching porn alot and i keep asking god to help me stop cause as he says ask and you shal recieve right and i keep feeling filthy and weird plz someone pray over me thks.

Pls. Help....

User — Tue, 07 Sep 2010 10:35:25 -0400

Hi I'm 14 yrs. old, and I'm addicted to masturbation and watching ugly pictures on the net...I've tried hard to get out of this habit, but the temptation just keeps coming back to me...I used to watch porn 3-4 yrs. ago, but I managed to stop..and now I've again started masturbating since last year...I go to church and sunday school every week, I confess my sins to God and ask Him for forgiveness, to give me the strength to overcome that temptation, but I fail everytime. I'm alone at home for 6-7 hours in the morning with my younger brother, but I start masturbating while he watches cartoons, and I feel guilty after I'm done...I have a crush on a girl, but when I watch ugly pictures, I feel that I'm cheating on her, on my parents, and on my Lord....I am trying my best to stop this. I WANT to live a SINLESS life....I will surely pray for all those who are facing my same problem..please pray for me too..God Bless.

Gay Porn

User Submitted — Tue, 07 Sep 2010 10:24:30 -0400

I have struggled with viewing gay porn for a very long time, along with a depression disorder.

I recently quit porn for almost 3 months but today i have thrown myself back into it, and in my sinful heart I don't want to stop.

I have a great circle of christian friends and I am very active in my youthgroup as a teen leader. although I have suicidal thoughts almost every day.
I feel guilty because I have a great life and I shouldnt want it to end, but my porn addiction continues to bring me down spiritually.

I have strong sexual desires to be with a man, but my heart desires a woman... I have no problem crushing on girls, but its sometimes hard to be attracted to them sexually.

please help I need someone to talk to

I am addicted and I need help

User Submitted — Mon, 06 Sep 2010 14:02:32 -0400

I am addicted and I need help. I love Jesus, buts its just so hard to break free from this life crushing adiction. I would be clean for a week, even a month then the temptations arrises and I am back at rock bottom. I feel trap, like I have to sneak off and watch porn, all kinds. I feel mainly tempted when I am alone, and when I am alone in my room at night. I dont use my laptop because of the search history so I use my iPod, and sneak it on in my room before I go to bed. I keep praying fopr God to help keep my eyes pure and clean. I am thinking of starting to just through away what keeps bring me back to porn, is my iPod and the garbage I listen to on my iPod.

Struggle

User Submitted — Mon, 06 Sep 2010 14:02:28 -0400

I accepted Jesus into my life two years ago at a church camp. It was rockin and rollin for a few weeks after the camp and then it got to the point where i was back looking at porn and beating off almost daily. I've been caught by my parents looking at porn on more than one occasion and I feel guilty for a few days and im right back glued to the computer screen. I have promised God many times i would stop and i would make a good solid month or two and id slip up once and it was all over. Ever since the last time i got caught (about a month ago) porn hasnt been the issue. It's beating off thats been getting me. I constantly feel like Satan is right beside and trying to guide me to beat off by putting thoughts in my head and making me think about things i shouldnt. I also have done things with my girlfriend (not sex) that i know i shouldnt have. This i have stopped altogether. Masturbation has been my biggest struggle for 3 years now. I do my best to stop and i can go a feew weeks without doing it and i get overtaken by temptation but i found a solution for myself. There is a song by Pillar called Without A Fight and when i listen to it, i get pumped up and i feel like Satan is right in front of me and i yell at him that i wont go down without bleeding and that i have more willpower than he thinks. Now just the thought of being tempted makes me laugh. Right now as im typing i feel a burden being lifted from me. XXXChurch.com i want to say thank you for this website because this is probably the smartest thing i have done in a long time. Thank you so very much.

I need some help

User Submitted — Fri, 03 Sep 2010 10:53:54 -0400

My name is Phil and for the last 3 years I have been, as you may call it atticted to pornography. I am finding it hard to stop viewing it, but with peer pressure and the socieety I live in, it is difficult to succeed. I pray for many others who have succeedd and I wish for someone tosupport me because my friends and family wont.
Please help me,

I need to stop.

User Submitted — Fri, 03 Sep 2010 10:52:02 -0400

I try and try and try, and every time I think I'm doing better, my desires come flooding back in. I have prayed about it, asking God to simply take these desires away until I'm married. I know it's stupid, but I'm out of options. I literally break down in tears after every time, and beg God to forgive me. I tell Him I'll try as hard as I can to never do it again, but then a few days later, the desires are back so strong that I don't even remember my pledge to do better.

I'm sick of it, and I just want everything I've seen and done to be erased from my memory. I want to go back to the days when I was young and untainted. I want it all to go away, but I know that will probably never happen. God will forgive and forget, but I will never forget the things I've seen. So it feeds itself and grows stronger inside my mind and there's nothing I can do about it.

Struggling and Annoyed

User Submitted — Wed, 01 Sep 2010 11:29:12 -0400

I can't remember the 1st time I was exposed to porn. (because I was so young.) At the beginning I found myself look at animated porn, but eventually, I began to enjoy seeing videos of actual people. At 1st, I really hated masturbating for a very long time, but recently I have become much more tolerant, and have even began to enjoy it. I am just constantly adapting to the porn world and forcing myself to tolerate the action, usually with the excuse that it will make me better at sex in the real world. I promise myself and God that I will stop but I keep going back. I really need help.

Since i Was 11...

User Submitted — Wed, 01 Sep 2010 11:27:44 -0400

Ive Been Addicted To Porn Since i Was 11...Ive Tried Over Nd Over Again To Stop Watching Porn...The Longest Ive Gone WithOut Porn Is ,I Believe, 2 Months....But Then A Pop up Came Up Nd Yea...Started All Over Again...I Jst Want To Stop already...I Hate Dat My Flesh Is Addicted To Porn...Its Been basically 3 yrs...I Want To Be Set Free Of Dis Addiction...

Feels like I'm not getting anywhere...

User Submitted — Wed, 01 Sep 2010 11:26:43 -0400

I have been addicted to masturbation for about 5 years now. It used to be connected to a pronography addiction, but I've managed to get over that, and do not suffer with pornography addiction at all anymore. However, the masturbation addiction I can't seem to get rid of.

At the worst, I was masturbating multiple times a day. Over the last year, it's reduced to 3 or 4 times a week. There have been times when I've gone up to ten weeks without even being tempted, but it always seems to come back when Satan gets a foothold.

It nearly always happens in the morning, before I get up. This is especially true these days when I end up masturbating when I stay in bed for a while after waking up.

I know this is something I need to wipe out of my life, but nothing I do seems to help. These early morning times when I'm half asleep are difficult to escape from, as I'm not fully in control.

Romans 7:15 "I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do."

I hate masturbating, but I still do it!

Getting this out

User Submitted — Wed, 01 Sep 2010 11:26:07 -0400

Well i should start from the beginning, my name is Matthew, i started looking at porn when i was 8 years old (not knowing what i was doing). The problem continued growing through my life especially in my years before i met Jesus. I was a social scapegoat in my school and it only threw me in a hard depression state for over 7 years until Jesus got a hold of me. Even though i have God and Jesus now (and iam not depressed) i still feel really lonely from time to time (just Satan trying to squeeze back into my life).

Then i got saved and my struggle vs pornography and masterbation started. it grew untill i found the church i'am currently attending and i could talk to my pastors about it.

The most horrid part i feel about all of this it the fact that God has healed me of this problem more then once.... EVERY single time he helps me with this problem some whammy comes along and knocks the addiction back into my life.

I really love God and Jesus for pulling me out of my depression state and for healing me and giving me so much prosperity in my life but I seriously don't know how much longer i can keep going back and forth with this addiction, i'am trying to set up accountability software at the moment but it worries me because sometimes you dont even need to go to a pornographic website...just use a popular video website and there yah go...

But anyways any prayer would be very helpfull, and suggestions please.

My Problem...

User Submitted — Wed, 01 Sep 2010 11:24:50 -0400

I have been struggling with this addiction for about 2 years now. Right now I am a junior in high school, I remember looking at it summer going into freshman year. In middle school I was an all A and B student. But ever since i got to high school my grades have went down a lot. I really feel like my addiction has something to do with it.

I really don't want to tell a life story here because it wont take awhile so I just want some people to read this and just help me out please and pray for me.....At this point in my life right now nothing is going my way. I try to read the bible everyday but always seem to turn back to it, I don't find myself hanging out with friends as much, and I attend church every single sunday. I have a very close small group of guys my age where we talk a lot. I have even told people about my problem but nothing seems to work at all. I really just need some help

I dont want to live the life Im living with right now

I am a pornoholic

User Submitted — Wed, 01 Sep 2010 11:24:26 -0400

Hi.... I am a 17 year old guy nearly 18... and I want to confess to all you guys I dont know... That I am way to addicted into porn.... Everyday I pray to God my Lord and Savior to help me that I need Him but like I end up watching pornography at the end.... I had even downloaded X3Watch but it isnt working at my computer for I guess its because its windows 7 or idk.... but I pray every single day for his mercy and help... I watch like 2 times everyday.... and at the end the devil laughs at me making me feel so so guilty and fool.... I really love my Lord and Savior... My Daddy.... My God but I am such a fool and sometimes I pray to God to punish me to take my life to send me over to HELL... so I may not sin anymore.... and hurt my God.... It is really sad for me to say this but it is the truth.... I thought God had changed me... but I am still the same... and I cry out everyday being ashamed from all my friends out in my church... and I need ur guys help... seriously I need ur guys help and my Daddy's help because I really want to stop.... I sincerely want to stop.... but I can't.... cause I am nothing... I can't because I can't do it without my God... and I know that everyday he is there right beside me watching me how I watch pornography and masturbate like a sick man.... and that's all I want to say to you guys...

today unknowingly was the day

User Submitted — Wed, 01 Sep 2010 11:22:58 -0400

today i woke up like any other normal day. i had masturbated a few times in the morning and started my day. i have been looking at xxx church for a while now but never really stoped my porn usage. I was looking in the local news paper for a job and i saw a notice about addiction and a number to call. it was for a church group. unknowingly there was a meeting for tonight and when i called i was emmediately envited to come. i did. everyone prayed for me and i found jesus. i know jesus loves everyone. i will fight this battle and i vow to stop my sins with gods help. amen

Stuck.

User Submitted — Wed, 01 Sep 2010 11:22:18 -0400

I don't know why. When I was around the age of twelve I started looking up porn on the internet. I'm so sick of it, yet I keep on coming back. I love God and try to live my life as Christ-like as possible. But when I'm alone in front of a computer screen? It's all over. I can't stand this. I guess I'm confessing now because I've tried everything but speaking about this to a real person. I just can't do that. I've asked God to forgive me a million times, but I just keep on getting dragged down that road. Don't know what else to say. It's killing me here. I need God's help.

12

User Submitted — Wed, 25 Aug 2010 20:26:46 -0400

I've been watching porn since i was 12 and ever since almost every time i get on the computer i have to take quick peek at a porn video i dont know how to stop. I need help

When will it end

User Submitted — Wed, 25 Aug 2010 20:26:26 -0400

i first started watching porn and masturbating when i was 13. and ever since then i havent been able to stop. there is one exception. when i was a junior and senior in high school i didnt masturbate or look at porn i was actually very close to GOD. but when my father died in december of my senior year i didnt know what to do i didnt know where to go i was lost and thats when i started back again. i miss the closeness i had with GOD and how i talked too him everyday. but now it feels like i dont deserve to be near him because of what i have been doing. i just want too stop. i convince myself all the time when i do do it but when i get finished i feel horrible. please help me stop.

The Long Fall

User Submitted — Wed, 25 Aug 2010 20:26:11 -0400

Everyone that is here knows in some way or another whay happens when you first look at porn. It seems really wierd...but then you look again. Then it becomes a normal thing to do for you. I looked at my first pornographic picture when I was 13 and it has been a constant struggle ever since. Its a cycle. Yes you will mess up even after you are save but what I have learned recently is that if we forget the things that happened in the past then you will keep going back to them. (Romans 8). We need to all stop going back to the things of the past and focus on out future which is God. I personally just finished looking at porn and have that really empty feeling because I did so. If we run after God than that feeling will be gone and that is always good.

Help

User Submitted — Tue, 24 Aug 2010 11:14:30 -0400

The first time I saw porn was when I was 12. I was at a friends house and he had magazine with pictures he printed of the internet hidden in them. We would spend hours looking at them . Im 15 now and watch porn every day on the computer and dont know how to stop. I go to to church every sunday,and I know what im doing is wrong. I promise myself I wont watch porn again , but within a few days I always catch myself watching it again.
I dont know how to stop.

girls struggle with porn too!

User Submitted — Tue, 24 Aug 2010 11:11:12 -0400

hey im Alex and im 17, i struggle with sex, porn, and masturbating...along with many other things...i am a girl and its so embarrassing...i cant go a week without having sex and i cant go a day without looking at porn. i feel like i have noone i can talk to about this, i feel like i am the only GIRL that struggles with this..if there is anyone that reads this and that can help me or pray for me..it would be appreciated!

This summer

User Submitted — Sun, 22 Aug 2010 18:57:37 -0400

I've been looking at porn for the last 7 years of my life,
it started as curiosity, but then as I discovered masturbation
it became an addiction. This summer has changed my life, I watched so much porn, and had it drilled into my head that the first opportunity I had, I had sex. I cheated on my girlfriend, lied to my parents, used the girl, and damaged myself. And now that I have found a girl worth staying pure for, I don't know how. I can't stop.

Help

User Submitted — Sun, 22 Aug 2010 18:55:01 -0400

So I've been looking at gay porn for a while,but I don't think I'm gay. I've had girlfriends and was attracted to them. I feel disgusted after watching it and it repulses me. I have accountability partners,but they only think it's straight porn. Do I need to tell them all the details about what type it is? Help I'm kinda confused and really want to break this habit cause I want to go on and get married to a woman and have kids. Any advice? Prayers appreciated

Help

User Submitted — Wed, 18 Aug 2010 17:14:19 -0400

I am 13 and I have been looking at porn since I was around 10 when I missplelled the name of a website. My addiction has only gotten worse in the last year. During the school year I probably look at porn and masturbate a few times a week, but over the summer I am home alone for hours at a time and I do it everyday.

I have always grown up going to church and my parents are strong christians. I never really felt very close to God and a few months ago I wasn't even feeling guilty about it. That all changed when my friend from school invited me to his church camp with him. After the second night at camp my friend asked me if I had ever looked at porn. I told him everything and it turns out we struggle with the same problem. We talked about how to prevent it and how we never wanted to do it again. I devoted my life to Christ and got baptized by my Dad when I got home. I was feeling a great and happy that I had overcome my addiction and I wasn't masturbating anymore. That lasted about 4 weeks.

My friend who I talked to has been gone the last two weeks and won't be back until right before school. 4 weeks after I got baptized I looked at porn and now I am addicted as ever. I was just getting on the computer now to look at it but instead I came here. I can't believe how I just gave my life to Christ and felt I was done for good and now I'm right back at it again. I need help to stop this.